I'd say insecurities pretty much come with the territory that is life. Some cry louder than others, some fester and grow, while others are ignored and shrink. Regardless, we all have our doubts, or uncertainties about our attributes, attitudes, relationships, life choices, careers, and of course, our appearance.
A lot of insecurities can be paralyzing. They can restrain us from so many things leaving us " wishing" we could say what we wanted to say, do what we really wanted to do, or act a way that wasn't premeditated and calculated, and was just...real.
With no worry of judging eyes, or strangers whispers or obscene opinions. The sad part is that "idea" is probably just that to so many. A blissful idea of a reality they'll never believe can actually exist.
I wonder how many people wish that they didn't need to rationalize, and justify, and explain why they were doing what they're doing because they finally grasped the idea that approval just isn't always necessary.
I've taken my share of stumbles, in modest terms that's a whole lot of straight face-plant-in-the-dirt-kick-me-when-I'm-down moments in my life; literally probably too many for me to even count, but I survived it.
No matter how many times I've done it, risked it, lost it all, won a little, I'll never lose my courage, ever. I'll never be too scared to take that risk or that chance.
That this is my life, and I want to live it with confidence, and not let my urges to second-guess and cross-check myself create an obstacle for me to take control of what I want to do and where I want to go.
It's really easy to sit in the passenger seat and watch the scenery go by. But I've never really been the passive type. I'd rather be the one to decide where I'm going.
This year, I've learned to shut my mouth, shrug my shoulders, and trust my gut. . . I have a safety net that hasn't failed me yet. <3 Guess it's time to take that leap
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