Reflections

Friday, July 9, 2010

on my way to believing


Some people spend their whole lives looking for something they'll never find.

I try to live my life expecting and wanting nothing in some silly effort leave space to be pleasantly surprised rather than disappointed.

It has definitely improved my ratio of happiness to heartache, in a care-free if it happens, it happens sort of way.

And then there's that realization that most of us hate to be reminded of; things happen in your life when you're not looking for them to.
Yet, so often we seek love in moments of loneliness, or search for happiness in times of sadness.

These feelings, these things, are temporary.

In my experience, seeking a quick fix to these feelings inflicts a crazy spiral of events and relationships that were built upon need and want; essentially guaranteeing their own demise and inevitably returning you right back to where you started before you selfishly sought out the easy solution.

It's when were not scavenging or expecting that the timing seems to end up being just so perfectly coordinated with a level of vulnerability and openness to something new; to the unexpected.

We are with our guard down, at our most unprotected state, creating the only real chance for...chance.

Because sometimes, leaving the openness for the possibility of something, allows for the once-in-a-lifetime to happen.

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